Wednesday, July 29, 2009

another day on LOA!

What's up? I'm nearing the end of yet another day of sitting at home! It's been an uneventful day. Slept in, played Wii and ate lunch with Stevo, blah blah blah. Then at 2:00 he left for work and I've been home alone ever since! (With the exception of a visit from my mother and Stephen's lunch break.) It's really not all that bad, just boring. It's harder to keep still (i.e. not do a ton of housework - it seems I'm always able to find something I need to clean) than I thought it would be. What's funny is that I was so sick of work, too, I threatened taking my LOA early so that I wouldn't be harrassed by all the old ladies I work with and inconsiderate customers. People have absolutely zero tact when it comes to talking about pregnancy/pregnant ladies/pregnant bellies. I can't even begin to tell you have many times I heard...
"Are you having twins?"
"Are you SURE there's only one baby in there?"
"Oh my... you must be due any day now!" (No... I have 6 weeks to go, thanks!)
"I was huge like you when I was pregnant, too." (Um... ok?)
"That's going to be one BIG boy!"
...on and on and on.

I cried. At work. More than once.

Yesterday was a semi-disappointment at the doctor. I really really really wanted to be dilated -- not necessarily because I want to be induced (I don't - I want Christopher to come in his own time) but because I just knew with all the aches and pains I've been having that I would be dilated at least a little and have the possibility of a non-induced delivery in my future. But, since my blood pressure was down and I wasn't dilated, my doctor decided not to induce right now, unless I start experiencing more severe signs of toxemia. (Ringing in my ears, seeing spots, severe headaches that won't go away, etc.) I am glad that I'm not being induced yet. I do want to go into labor naturally. I just liked the idea of being able to say, "If Christopher doesn't show up on his own, he should be here by next ---day!" Ya know?

My fundal height (basically the measurement of my uterus from outside the body - from your pubic bone to the top of the uterus [which the doctor can find by touch]) is 43 cm. This means that my stomach is measuring at approximately 43 weeks pregnant. I'll be 38 weeks Friday. This is nothing new, I've been measuring big my whole pregnancy (and yes, my doctor has had an ultrasound done to make sure that the baby is measuring normal - and yes, he measured right on track) but it also means that I have the stomach of a woman who is three weeks overdue. Do you understand now why I am ready to have this child!?!?

Don't get me wrong -- I have really enjoyed being pregnant. I know how lucky and blessed I am to be pregnant, and to have carried this baby full-term. But I am also ready to hold this baby, meet him, bring him home. I want to have my pre-pregnancy body back. I want to be able to get up off the couch without help. I want to be able to bend over without having Braxton-Hicks contractions. I want to be able to go more than an hour without having to pee! I want to be able to wear shoes again, be able to stand for more than 20 minutes, be able to see my feet... I could go on and on. Again -- I really am grateful for having a healthy pregnancy (up until a few weeks ago, at least) and I'm not trying to sound whiny or ungrateful. I'm just ready.

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